WHY ARE WE SO AFRAID TO FAIL?
As I sit here, on the beach going old school with a pen and pad to jot down my observations I can not help but feel and wonder in amazement that “what happened to me” moment.
WHY ARE WE SO AFRAID TO TRY SOMETHING NEW?
Ok so what am I looking at? Let me paint the perfect picture for you; I am sitting in a beach chair facing the crystal clear teal blue ocean waters with gentle rolling waves washing up on the warm golden yellow-ish white sand, the gentle breeze that is hitting my sun kissed face smells like the ocean and is warm to my skins touch, the clouds of white are few and far between dancing in the open space of the seemingly endless baby blue sky while the sun sends down its warming love from above- classic beach day!
The kids in front of my are ‘skin boarding’ some are beginners and there are a few that are pretty damn good! What I would call “rippin it” – what is this skin boarding you ask, well its a peice of wood very thin very slick about waist height and looks somewhat like a small or child sized surf board but however it is meant to ride the retreating beach waters into the in-coming waves from the ocean- so its like a backwards version of surfing.
Its looks so so so so fun to me and guess what I just happend to have my own board with me (well there was one in the unit I rented). Yet I sit here some what paralyzed…I take a deep cleansing breath in hold it…wait 5 seconds…release… I do this 5 more times. I need some clarity…. the sun is perfect, temperature is perfect, water conditions perfect, water temperature perfect, I am feeling perfect…yet I have not gotten off my sexy ass as of yet and started to ‘rip it’ with the others.
Why am I so afraid? What am I so afraid of? Why am I scared to try this? WHY ARE WE SO AFRAID?
Ok as I sat in my state of awareness while doing my breathing meditation all these programmed thoughts, all these conditioned thoughts are running rampant in my mind.
Your not 8 years old, your not 15 years old, your too old to be playing little kid games, what if you fall, you might get hurt, you might hurt yourself and not be able to work, you might look like an idiot, look at all these people on the beach what will they think of….I could go on for days about all the reason, wait… hold on…. excuses to NOT do this but I do not have a solid reason to actually not do this. Excpet that my EGO was trying to get the better of me – HUMBLE yourself!
Image with me for a second- if when we were crawling towards walking, learning to speak, learning to ride a bike, to swim, to play a new sport, learning to drive….what if we used any one of my excuses or any one of the ones that as you read this come up in your head as a reason you can not or won’t do something, and image we applied that at try number 30 of 650 of trying to walk from crawling, or try 3 of saying mom but it actually took 245 tries to say mom, you see where I am going with this!!
Yet we get to a certain age or place in life and we just give up so easily or we fail to even bother to try…we do no participate in life any longer!! WTF!!
So I said phuck it – it’s about fun, and fun I had…for about 2 hours I probably fell maybe 10 times a few soar areas on the body but I was riding the water almost right away by no means like a pro but not to bad for a first timer…and guess what my mind state was so high beacuse I had accomplished something and done something new, I set out on a goal and did it…do you remember how good that feels?? Its phucking amazing!